Friday, March 24, 2006
Last Saturday, Evan and I celebrated our sixth wedding anniversary. The past year has been one of the best and one of the worst for us. Between Evan graduating from college, and the birth of our son, then Evan being laid off and unemployed for over a year, there's definitely been some bitter with the sweet. We once again find ourselves living with people, which kind of feels like step backward. So, we were really looking forward to getting away to a friends vacation home in Big Bear. It was wonderful! We had snow on the ground, a fire in the fireplace and joy in our hearts. I know I sound cheesy, but it was a turning point. To be able to look back on the year and acknowledge the bad, and rejoice over the gifts and to be grateful that for the last six years it was Evan I experienced it all with.
Friday, March 10, 2006
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Right now I am supposed to be on my first real date with Evan since Johnny came into our lives. At least once a year we go see one of our favorite musicians, Damien Jurado, at our favorite bar, the Casbah. Evan's mom was going to babysit Johnny, I pumped a bottle of milk and everything seemed go. Except, me. As much as I wanted the time with Evan somewhere we so enjoy, I just wasn't ready to leave my baby, especially at bedtime. Oh well. I don't regret my decision, I know if I were at the concert right now, my mind would be here with Johnny, anyways. But it has gotten me thinking about how I balance motherhood and my relationship with Evan. Is it normal for there to be periods where one role takes a back seat to the other? I would love any advice or feedback from any of you reading this.
Well, I hope Evan is enjoying the great music and his last gin and tonic before Lent. We are going to get some time together after all. On Sunday afternoon, we are going to lunch and a movie and Johnny will be with Grandma. Hopefully, that will make everyone happy.